Long time no blog

We are roughly 11 weeks into this deployment it feels like Shaun and I have been apart for much much longer.  I know I have not written in a while so I thought I would share what I have been up to.  For starters I have been working 40 hours a week at the pool.  Working has made the weeks go by fast so I am very thankful for that.  The wives and I have been hanging out a few times a week it is nice being able to talk to women who know exactly what you are feeling.  I think it was a couple of weeks ago that all of us were feeling really down.  During deployments there comes a time when you realize your husband is not just gone for a couple of months for a training exercise he is gone for 5-7 months in a different country and it hurts, your heart hurts.  You keep thinking oh he will be home in a few weeks then all of a sudden you realize oh no there is still about 5 months to go.  I have decided that I hate when people ask me when my husband is coming home because when I tell them I still have roughly 4 months to go they always respond oh my that’s so far away I feel like saying to them DUH YOU THINK I DON’T KNOW IT’S FAR AWAY!!! I only sit at home waiting for that phone call or waiting for that message on facebook (thank God for technology).  I know how long I have till I get to see my husband’s face again please people don’t remind me that I have a long way to go.  Sorry for the little vent I guess I get tired of putting on a brave face to strangers trying to pretend that deployments really aren’t that bad.  They suck!

But in other news last week my mom and little brother came out to visit me we had a fun weekend filled with lots of Disneyland. I really miss my mom. Then this weekend my sister came out to visit it was a much needed sister vacation (stay-cation for me). She brought her two boxers with her so it was two of us and three of them let’s just say the coffee table had to be moved to the corner because my family room is actually just an extension of my backyard.

That’s about all that has happened in the last 10 weeks that I haven’t written. I know super exciting I hope you have enjoyed reading.  Until next time J

one week down!

Tomorrow is going to be one week since Shaun deployed and so far so good.  I have been working a lot and in my free time hanging out with some of the other wives.  It’s nice having them around since they know exactly what I am going through.  This is going to be the longest time Shaun and I have been apart since we started living together.  When I tell people Shaun is a marine and of course with that he is gone a lot they always ask how do you do it? and at work this week I was talking to a kid and he said “you military wives you’re a different kind of breed” and I can’t help but agree with him 100% we are a different breed but also I would say are husbands are a different kind of breed as well.  They have to be creative when it comes to anniversaries and birthdays because most of the time they aren’t home for those, they may not be home but they still need to fill our love bucket!  I think Shaun is really good about keeping my love bucket full for example the day he left he didn’t have to be to work until the evening time and I of course was at work the entire day.  When I came home from work my hands were full I was on the phone and pretty emotional considering my husband was going to be leaving in like a few hours.   He wouldn’t let me walk into the family room area and he was blocking me and finally I looked at him and was like WHAT!? And he goes come here I go in the kitchen and there are two big pictures in frames one was of me and him and the other of me and my friends and in between them he got me lilies (my favorite) and a card that had my name on it and under my name said do not open until September 18 (our anniversary).  Shaun planned three months in advanced so I could for sure have a card on our anniversary. I told him why do you have to be so good to me it makes me miss you more when you’re gone lol.  I have a wonderful husband. Enough about Shaun I’m crying my eyes out now missing him so much, so I’ll tell you a funny story about Bentley.  He has been pretty picky about his food lately and not eating it right away almost as if I had been feeding him too much (8cups a day). so I decided to cut down to 6 cups a day.  Last night while eating pizza Bentley starts crying and begging me for food of my plate and I never ever ever feed him food off my plate so I don’t know where the begging was coming from. Tonight I realized he was throwing up in the back yard and I went out there and it was two huge handfuls of grass (guess I’m starving him now). Doesn’t matter what I do I guess bent will never be happy lol. Can you say spoiled!!!

Another deployment

So I know it has been a while since I last blogged but I have been trying to spend as much of the last two months with the husband because of course he deployed again.  This deployment will be my fourth since we have been together.  Although I know what to expect it is still really hard.  I am so lucky though because I had a wonderful friend help keep my mind off him being gone today this being the beginning of the deployment it’s always the hardest (her husband is also deployed).  I think Bentley knows Shaun is gone because he has been acting very strange it is kind of sad :(  during this deployment I plan on working as much as I can and praying that nothing goes wrong lol.  In October last year I went to a LINKS meeting and basically it is an 8 hour meeting where you learn what to expect while being a marine wife. At this meeting they told us that during deployments Murphy’s law happens all the time, so far I can say that this is true so I am praying really hard that these 6 or so months go by smoothly.  Hopefully I will be able to blog more that my husband is gone (something else to keep my mind off the deployment).

Something else that is going on besides deployment is I have decided to change what I want to be when I grow up.  I have decided to go into nursing.  Changing this hasn’t really set me back much but I am not exactly moving forward either I have some courses I need to take before I can try and get into the nursing program but I am so excited and I actually feel like this is what I am supposed to do. Other than that I guess that’s about it! Hope all is well!

Shaun got home in April yes, yes I know its May 3^rd sorry I haven’t written in a while.  I’m so glad that Shaun is finally home but like always there is an adjustment period.  You get so used to doing things by yourself and on your own.  Just as soon as he gets home though we are now planning for his next deployment which is at the beginning of summer so, basically SOON!  I am not ready for him to leave again and this time it is for 6 months.  Some exciting news though is I am graduating May 18^th with my associates degree! It has been a long time coming.  I’ll be transferring to Cal State San Marcos in the fall.  I finally feel like I am moving forward.  I have been in school for four years so it is about time to feel like I’m going somewhere. Now of course I need to give you all an update on Bentley, and of course it has to do with him eating something (what else is new).  We have been letting Bentley have a towel to lie on while in his kennel.  He ended up chewing a piece of the towel off, the chunk of the towel that he chewed off was the size of a wash cloth but luckily two days later it came out in throw up! So once again Bentley has eaten something and passed it that would normally kill a dog lol.

Well once again it has been some time since I last blog let’s see where to start.. Shaun will be coming home soon. We finally got the block time for when we should be expecting them it was killer waiting for that now that I have a date I feel like there is finally a light at the end of this tunnel.  Bentley has been interesting lately about a week ago or so I was sitting on the couch and I started to think where is Bentley? So I went out back and yelled for him and here he comes running in covered in mud from head to toe.  He has white on his chest and on his feet well after being in the mud he was no longer brindle he was a chocolate lab! So naturally I yell at him telling him to get back outside.  If you know Bentley you know that he hates water so I was wondering how am I going to clean him before bed. So I went next door and had to borrow doggy shampoo, then I had to lift his 90lb butt into the tub and lifting a 90lb dog that is afraid of water is a lot harder than it sounds lol.  I had to strip down into my undies and bra and get in the tub with him to give him a bath it was quite the experience! So after that I looked around my house and the carpet was muddy the tub was muddy the walls in the bathroom were muddy, so after giving Bentley a bath I had to give my house a bath lol.

Another thing that has happened since I last blogged is that I weed whacked my back yard! We have like two patches that grow so it’s not enough to run a lawn mower and the last time the grass got so tall Shaun was home to weed whack it; well this time I did it all by myself and no one taught me how to use the weed whacker or anything!!! I have been so proud of myself for all the things I have been doing around the house. Well I guess that’s about it for today.

Blessed

Early this morning I finally got that call from Shaun I was waiting on it was so good to hear his voice and I talked his ear off for 25 mins.  I wish he was home already so I could just come home from work and tell him all about my day.  I have found comfort in my friends though it’s so nice to just pick of the phone and invite them over for frozen pizza and TV time.  Me and a couple of my friends have started doing dinner every Sunday night, we cook and watch TV and just enjoy the time with each other.  Being a military wife we are so often pulled away from our family and stationed at some base where we don’t know anyone, so when we find those few friends where we feel like we can be our selves we look at them like family.  I often wonder what I would do without the friends I have met since I moved here. I am truly blessed.

missing my hubby

I am still waiting to hear from Shaun, I haven’t heard from him in like a week I know that’s not that long but still.  The worst part of not being able to talk to him is not being able to tell him about my day.  When we first started dating we were on our way to see a movie and I was just talking and talking and then I stopped and realized I had talked the entire 15 min drive to the movies and I looked at him and I said I talk a lot huh? And he said yeah but I like it and ever since then he has always been the best and just letting me talk about my day about what I did at school or what I did at work and when he’s not home I miss that time we have.  My dad always gets on my case about how I never let Shaun get a word in but I swear Shaun loves when I talk his ear off!! Lol  I guess that’s really what has been bothering me today that all I want to do is talk to my husband.

well it has been three months since the last one sorry!!

Well once again I have gone a while without blogging.  Where to start where to start?? We have been living in our home for about 3 months I have unpacked most of our stuff and have been doing lots of decorating.  We just recently got kitchen chairs after using camping chairs for three months it was about time lol thank goodness for ikea!  Bentley got attacked by a dog a week ago at the dog park thank goodness he didn’t need to get stitches but he was on antibiotics for a week and I had to clean the bite marks 2-3 times a day but he is doing much better.  Shaun is currently on a training exercise this is the first time we had been living together before him leaving so this time with him being gone is a lot different than when he went to afghan, I can’t wait till he’s home.  Yesterday Bentley saw a guy in cami’s walking down our street and he thought it was Shaun he started crying and shaking it was sad so naturally I cried my eyes out.  I just can’t wait till Shaun is home I decided that I am going to film Bentley’s reaction to Shaun because I know it’s going to be great! Well I guess that’s enough catch up I will be better about blogging I swear!! Have a good one all!!!