just a little blog about cancer

This is going to be a short little blog… So Ellen DeGeneres made a challenge to post videos of you dancing to raise awareness of childhood cancer.  Naturally this hit home because in 2005 my little brother was diagnosed with cancer.  His 10 year cancerversary is next week and I am going to be posting a blog about how that day was for me, the cancer kid’s sister.  Cancer can really rock a family.  All of a sudden all you know is different. Anyways all you who are reading this please post a video on your social media of you dancing and give it #justkeepdancing.  Kids can’t fight cancer alone.

Sticking to the pattern of not posting

Once again I have gone a long time without blogging, I guess I am not going to be a professional blogger. Oh well!  Here’s a quick update on what is going on: I have applied to 3 nursing programs and have been accepted into 1 I’m still waiting to hear back from my number one but I got accepted into my number two wawhoo!!! So either way I will be starting nursing school come August!!! I can finally see a light at the end of this long long long tunnel.

Shaun has been working super hard not sure of all he does but you know, Marine stuff.

Bentley is almost 5 (if you are new to my blog or have no idea who I am Bentley is our dog).  He is still pretty hyper and he thinks he is the official watch dog of the neighborhood.  He loves taking up the whole bed at night and would prefer to sleep in rather than get up at 4am with Shaun.

We are still living in North Carolina.  We are approaching our 2 year anniversary of closing on our house! I cannot believe it!!  I never thought I could love North Carolina but I think I am starting to. Don’t get me wrong I miss the California life, but I guess a little southern living isn’t so bad.  We are still figuring out this whole home owners stuff and if you don’t own a home all I can tell you is owning a home is hard work.  It reminds me of how much I hate being a grown up. 

A little story that happened the other day:  I had a little flash back of my childhood.  I was pretending and playing house.  I had bobby pins on a hair tie; these were my house keys.  I had my purse on my shoulder and I walked up to my closed bedroom door and started to pretend to unlock it with a bobby pin… I had this great flash back as I was holding mail in my hands and by mail all we get are bills so you know getting mail isn’t near as much fun as it was when you were a kid, anyways I had the mail in my hand, my purse on my shoulder and keys in my hand.  This time the keys were real house keys to my real house and I had real bills and my purse probably has less money in it than it did when I was a kid.  I just think if I could’ve told myself back then real “house” is not really that fun I wonder if I would’ve still wanted to play it?  I know there are some perks of being a grown up trust me I love love loveeeee being married and being a wife.  But I feel I am in this weird place where I am still a student and I don’t have a grown up job yet, but I am still considered a grown up. I don’t know maybe it’s just me maybe I am the only one who feels like pretending to be a grownup was so much more fun than actually being one.

 

That’s about all I got for now maybe I will blog again in a few days or maybe in a few months who knows either way, CHEERS TO ALL THE GROWNUPS OUT THERE!!

Whats For Dinner??

So I know I'm not the only military wife that doesn't eat the greatest when their husband is not home... and by not eating the greatest, I mean, well lets just say my meals aren't balanced..

When Shaun was deployed I would eat cereal, sandwiches, soup, frozen meals, umm I guess that's about it. So when ever he tells me he is going to be in the field or it is going to be a late night I just figure I'll eat cereal or a sandwich or something no big deal. 

And here is where I'm going with this..
Yesterday Shaun told me "tomorrow is going to be a late night" so I checked the pantry, saw I had soup and thought to my self, ok dinner for tomorrow is on.

well tomorrow is today and at about 6 pm tonight I'm sitting on the couch ignoring the fact that most of the dishes are dirty piled in the sink, I'm catching up on my trash tv, and I hear the garage door open.. hmmm.. I look at the clock and see that it's not to late.. weird I wonder who is here??

Heyy baby!! YUP Shaun came home earlier than he thought and the first words out of his mouth were "what's for dinner?" I looked at him with two thoughts in my head.. 1) there is only one can of soup and 2) I hope he doesn't look at the sink.  I told him.. umm.. I don't really have dinner plans, I wasn't going to eat, you said you were coming home late..  When your marine comes home from work he comes home with a hunger of 500 men I SWEAR!! so I felt bad, so I told him there were left overs in the fridge :) I am such a great wife! lol.. Oh well..

I know I am not the only military wife out there who eats the way I do when the husband is not home.. how do I know this you ask? well most of my friends that I have met through out this crazy military life think that Oreos are a perfect appetizer to a wonderful dinner of a whole bag of unwashed grapes.  Yup if you're a military wife I'm pretty sure you've been there lol

So to anyone who reads this that knows a military wife please feed her, she's hungry and I can tell you the lucheable that she's eating doesn't actually taste that good.


PS: Thank you to my wonderful neighbors Ashlyn and Ryan in California that fed me almost everyday while Shaun was deployed

I really need to blog more often!

Well, it has been a long time since the last I blogged.. like 2 years!! YIKES! So I guess I will tell you a little of what has been going on..

We left Camp Pendleton July 2013 and started our journey across the country. Shaun got stationed at Camp Lejeune and we are approaching a year mark, honestly I can't believe we have been here for almost a year.  We bought a house out here in North Carolina and are learning what being a home owner is all about, how can I put this.. BEING A GROWN UP SUCKS! not really, but it kind of does.  I am a full time student out here and I am really rocking at school, like I have a 4.0 gpa!! I'm sure a lot of you are wondering how Bentley is doing and surprisingly he's doing pretty good besides being allergic to everything in our back yard causing vet visits and vet bills to go up but I guess that's nothing new.  Bentley just had his 4th birthday so I am now a mom of a 4 year old dog, he is no longer my little puppy :(

So why did I decide to start blogging again??? Well...
This last December I had actually made a New Years resolution to blog more.. obviously that didn't go as planned so I am hoping I can keep up with it and be able to tell you the story about our life as it's happening.

That's all I have for today I figured I'd keep it short and sweet and ease you guys back into our lives :)

Long time no blog

We are roughly 11 weeks into this deployment it feels like Shaun and I have been apart for much much longer.  I know I have not written in a while so I thought I would share what I have been up to.  For starters I have been working 40 hours a week at the pool.  Working has made the weeks go by fast so I am very thankful for that.  The wives and I have been hanging out a few times a week it is nice being able to talk to women who know exactly what you are feeling.  I think it was a couple of weeks ago that all of us were feeling really down.  During deployments there comes a time when you realize your husband is not just gone for a couple of months for a training exercise he is gone for 5-7 months in a different country and it hurts, your heart hurts.  You keep thinking oh he will be home in a few weeks then all of a sudden you realize oh no there is still about 5 months to go.  I have decided that I hate when people ask me when my husband is coming home because when I tell them I still have roughly 4 months to go they always respond oh my that’s so far away I feel like saying to them DUH YOU THINK I DON’T KNOW IT’S FAR AWAY!!! I only sit at home waiting for that phone call or waiting for that message on facebook (thank God for technology).  I know how long I have till I get to see my husband’s face again please people don’t remind me that I have a long way to go.  Sorry for the little vent I guess I get tired of putting on a brave face to strangers trying to pretend that deployments really aren’t that bad.  They suck!

But in other news last week my mom and little brother came out to visit me we had a fun weekend filled with lots of Disneyland. I really miss my mom. Then this weekend my sister came out to visit it was a much needed sister vacation (stay-cation for me). She brought her two boxers with her so it was two of us and three of them let’s just say the coffee table had to be moved to the corner because my family room is actually just an extension of my backyard.

That’s about all that has happened in the last 10 weeks that I haven’t written. I know super exciting I hope you have enjoyed reading.  Until next time J

one week down!

Tomorrow is going to be one week since Shaun deployed and so far so good.  I have been working a lot and in my free time hanging out with some of the other wives.  It’s nice having them around since they know exactly what I am going through.  This is going to be the longest time Shaun and I have been apart since we started living together.  When I tell people Shaun is a marine and of course with that he is gone a lot they always ask how do you do it? and at work this week I was talking to a kid and he said “you military wives you’re a different kind of breed” and I can’t help but agree with him 100% we are a different breed but also I would say are husbands are a different kind of breed as well.  They have to be creative when it comes to anniversaries and birthdays because most of the time they aren’t home for those, they may not be home but they still need to fill our love bucket!  I think Shaun is really good about keeping my love bucket full for example the day he left he didn’t have to be to work until the evening time and I of course was at work the entire day.  When I came home from work my hands were full I was on the phone and pretty emotional considering my husband was going to be leaving in like a few hours.   He wouldn’t let me walk into the family room area and he was blocking me and finally I looked at him and was like WHAT!? And he goes come here I go in the kitchen and there are two big pictures in frames one was of me and him and the other of me and my friends and in between them he got me lilies (my favorite) and a card that had my name on it and under my name said do not open until September 18 (our anniversary).  Shaun planned three months in advanced so I could for sure have a card on our anniversary. I told him why do you have to be so good to me it makes me miss you more when you’re gone lol.  I have a wonderful husband. Enough about Shaun I’m crying my eyes out now missing him so much, so I’ll tell you a funny story about Bentley.  He has been pretty picky about his food lately and not eating it right away almost as if I had been feeding him too much (8cups a day). so I decided to cut down to 6 cups a day.  Last night while eating pizza Bentley starts crying and begging me for food of my plate and I never ever ever feed him food off my plate so I don’t know where the begging was coming from. Tonight I realized he was throwing up in the back yard and I went out there and it was two huge handfuls of grass (guess I’m starving him now). Doesn’t matter what I do I guess bent will never be happy lol. Can you say spoiled!!!

Another deployment

So I know it has been a while since I last blogged but I have been trying to spend as much of the last two months with the husband because of course he deployed again.  This deployment will be my fourth since we have been together.  Although I know what to expect it is still really hard.  I am so lucky though because I had a wonderful friend help keep my mind off him being gone today this being the beginning of the deployment it’s always the hardest (her husband is also deployed).  I think Bentley knows Shaun is gone because he has been acting very strange it is kind of sad :(  during this deployment I plan on working as much as I can and praying that nothing goes wrong lol.  In October last year I went to a LINKS meeting and basically it is an 8 hour meeting where you learn what to expect while being a marine wife. At this meeting they told us that during deployments Murphy’s law happens all the time, so far I can say that this is true so I am praying really hard that these 6 or so months go by smoothly.  Hopefully I will be able to blog more that my husband is gone (something else to keep my mind off the deployment).

Something else that is going on besides deployment is I have decided to change what I want to be when I grow up.  I have decided to go into nursing.  Changing this hasn’t really set me back much but I am not exactly moving forward either I have some courses I need to take before I can try and get into the nursing program but I am so excited and I actually feel like this is what I am supposed to do. Other than that I guess that’s about it! Hope all is well!